Vanderpump Rules alum Rachel Leviss, aka Raquel Leviss, goes rogue in her debut podcast episode. Here’s a rundown of the top takeaways.

On Monday, former Bravo star Raquel Leviss, who now goes by her birth name, Rachel Leviss, launched her podcast, Rachel Goes Rogue.

After staying quiet for almost a year, Rachel Leviss is “ready to come clean, on my terms” and “tell you what’s true, what’s false, and the secrets I’ve been waiting to reveal.”

While Rachel Leviss admits she’s “made mistakes,” she vows to show Vanderpump Rules fans “REALITY through a different lens.”

In her first podcast episode, Rachel Leviss tells her side of Scandoval and season ten of Vanderpump Rules, admitting that she knows what she did was “morally wrong” and that she gets the “anger” towards her but notes that there’s so much to the story that fans don’t know.

Now, let’s break down all the top moments of the episode!

Happy to be Home in Los Angeles

Rachel Leviss is living in Los Angeles again and is happy to be home.

“It feels really good to be back in LA since everything blew up. This is the place that I grew up, so It feels like home. It’s warm. I’m seeing some of my friends I haven’t seen in a long time. I spent 90 days in a trauma therapy center without a phone, with all new people, And working with different therapists. I started noticing a pattern in my behavior, and I wanted to change those things.”

“Made a Mistake” Filming Season 10 After James Kennedy Split

“I already made a mistake by returning to season 10. Looking back at that season, I was at my lowest of lows. Filming Vanderpump Rules after breaking off an engagement with James was my first mistake because I should have taken the time to heal and find a therapist. I did the right thing by having a no-contact policy with James, but when we’re working together and filming together. He’s Flaunting his new girlfriend, that he met three weeks after I ended the engagement, that hurt. And there were so many questions running through my mind,” Rachel reveals

She notes: “Like, did he ever really love me? How is it possible to love someone and then get over them so quickly?”

Was Drinking A Lot During Season 10

“I was drinking a ton, season 10. And this is not an excuse. I’m just point blank, like, I was not in a good mental space. And in knowing that, I’m learning from my mistakes.”

Filming Season 11 Would Have Been “Catastrophic”

“I have completely removed myself from the filming environment that is Vanderpump Rules, and you will not see me [in] season 11,” Rachel Leviss explained.

“Looking back and seeing how much pain I was in, interacting with James on camera and his new girlfriend, I could only imagine the pain I would cause by filming in the same environment as Ariana [Madix]. Because being involved with somebody’s boyfriend while they’re still in a relationship is a huge betrayal and so painful as it is.

But then to continue working with these people and interacting with them, maybe not even speaking, but, like, hearing about what they’re doing and seeing your person that you loved so much and thought that They loved you just as much as you’ve loved them. Be conversing with this other person. It would just be so catastrophic, and I didn’t wanna do that to Ariana. I didn’t wanna put her in that position.”

Doesn’t Want to Hear From Vanderpump Rules Co-Stars

“With the cast, I don’t have many boundaries, but physical violence is crossing a boundary for me. And if you assault me, I will cut you out of my life. I haven’t heard from any of them, and I don’t really necessarily want to hear from any of them,” the 29-year-old admitted.

Questions Why Tom Sandoval Publicly Wished Her Happy Birthday

Rachel Leviss admits that she’s unsure if Tom Sandoval had ulterior motives when he publicly wished her a Happy Birthday on Instagram.

“Tom did send me a happy birthday message on my Instagram via comment, And he couldn’t have reached out to me via text because I blocked him the day that I got my phone back after treatment, but he could have DM’d me instead of making a public comment. And I’ve been thinking about that a lot, and I think For him because I’m just trying to put myself in his shoes. Like, was he doing this to be, like, spiteful, or was he doing this to be like, I want the best for you because it seems like it could go either way.”

Admits It Was “Hard” To Cut Tom Sandoval From her Life

“It was a hard process for me to completely cut him out of my life because the story I would tell myself about our relationship that we had, it seems so special and it seems so real, but when you Look at the cold, hard facts and write them down on a piece of paper and see all of those red flags clear as day. That will break you out of your denial. Once I was broken out of denial and realized how manipulative he is, I couldn’t put myself in a situation where, at my most vulnerable state, it would just Probably get me back into those old patterns that I’m trying to break free from. Taking a step back And removing myself from the chaos has allowed me to gain some clarity, actually, a lot of clarity on the situation.”

Reflecting on Season 10 of Vanderpump Rules

“I look back at season 10. Oh, god. It’s a really difficult season to watch back because I’m just cringing. Uh, all of the things and all of the moments that they caught on camera, it’s really embarrassing. But I see a girl [who] is going through pain and doesn’t have the right tools to tackle it, And she’s coping in the way that she feels like her needs are being met by someone who’s giving her adoration and attention. I really did not prioritize my friendships when I got involved with Tom, and I regret that a lot.”

Listen to Rachel Leviss’ first podcast episode below!

Vanderpump Rules premires on Jan. 30 at 8 p.m. ET on Bravo.

Thoughts on this all? Will you tune into Rachel’s podcast every week? Are you curious to see what she has to say?