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Bozoma Saint John is opening up about one of the most painful chapters of her life and the emotional reason she’s stepping back from her fertility journey for now.
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star has been candid this season about wanting to expand her family with fiancé Keely Watson, but in a new interview, Boz admitted the process has brought up trauma she still hasn’t fully healed from.
While appearing on Juicy Scoop with Heather McDonald, Boz reflected on the devastating loss of her daughter years ago and how the tragedy changed her marriage and her outlook on motherhood forever.
“I got pregnant, and unfortunately, I got very ill during my pregnancy. I developed severe preeclampsia, and my daughter passed away on the day she was born. It was still hard for me to articulate, but it was maybe one of the most devastating things.”
According to Boz, the unimaginable heartbreak became the beginning of cracks in her marriage.
“While he didn’t blame me, I felt like he blamed me. And I think that was. I think I made that up.”
Boz revealed she became determined to become a mother after the loss and ended up pregnant again just three months later. But the second pregnancy was also incredibly difficult.
She admitted she became “sick,” “terrified,” and was eventually put on bedrest at six months pregnant. Her daughter was later born prematurely and spent six weeks in the NICU.
The stress ultimately became too much for her marriage to survive.
“So a year after she was born we separated and I was like, ‘I can’t. I can’t do this,’” Boz revealed.
Now years later, Boz says she is once again confronting fears around pregnancy as she and Keely explore having a child together. However, she admitted she’s decided to temporarily step away from IVF treatments.
“I’ve decided to take a break for a moment. We’re going to get through our weddings, and then we’re going to pick it up again.”
Boz also said she is still figuring out what path forward makes the most sense emotionally and physically.
“I’m not sure if I will go through retrieval again, but there are other options,” she explained. “There’s egg donors. Surrogates. I’m not even sure necessarily that I want to carry the baby. So we’ll see.”
Although doctors have told her she is physically capable of continuing IVF, Boz admitted the emotional side has been much harder than expected.
“Psychologically, it’s a different story,” she said.
The RHOBH star revealed she has spent years in therapy working through different layers of grief, including the death of her daughter and the loss of her husband, but realized she had not fully processed her fears surrounding motherhood itself.
“I’ve dealt with the grief of losing Eve, I’ve dealt with the grief of losing my husband, I’ve dealt with the scariness of getting into another relationship,” she explained. “I hadn’t yet tackled the having another baby grief and scare.”
Boz also admitted fear stopped her from exploring options earlier in life after her divorce.
“I was like, first of all, I don’t want to put my health at risk,” she shared. “I was like, I don’t want to do it without a partner. It’s really hard to be a single mom.”
She continued, “I was like, I don’t know. I’m barely surviving doing the one, I don’t know if I could do it with two. Or three.”
Despite everything she’s endured, fans have praised Boz for being so raw and honest about the realities of pregnancy loss, divorce, and fertility struggles. And while she may be taking a pause for now, it’s clear her journey is far from over.
