Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Brandi Glanville had a tough year and she wants to remind everyone about it! Brandi took to her blog to talk about why 2013 was so hard for her and explains why she doesn’t show her vulnerable side. Brandi also calls out Lisa for being a friend that always point out things that she’s done wrong. See what Brandi had to say below

“I hope by watching this episode that people can understand a little more about why 2013 was such a tough year for me. My dad and I are a lot alike. We both have tempers and are very feisty. My dad overthinks everything — and I don’t think about things enough. He and I have always butted heads, but we usually resolved things right away.

This year my dad came down with a very serious heart condition. He had heart surgery in the past, and his heart now seem to be relapsing to the point he would need surgery again. He couldn’t even walk across a room with getting out of breath. For my dad, who is a very active person, this was very depressing.

My book came out, and originally my dad loved it and was very proud. But once his health started to fail, we had an argument about my Oscar dress and stopped talking — and not just for a few days this time but for almost five months. I tried my hardest to make up with him to no avail, and I felt very alone.

My dad is the only man in my life that I’ve always been able to count on and now he was gone. I was sad. And then Chica went missing and I fell into an even darker place. When my kids would leave to go to their dad’s, I felt that sadness I felt during my divorce creeping back up on me. I definitely leaned on the neck of a bottle of wine or two when I was feeling lost and alone.

Family is everything to me, and when we are not OK, I am not OK.Thank God I’m back on my happy pill and in a much better place now.

I was very nervous going to Sacramento because one wrong move and things between my dad and I could be unrepairable, which would mess up our entire family dynamic. This is why I brought hot back up in the very relatable form of Mrs. Yolanda Foster. My father gets intimidated easily when it comes to “fancy rich people” and although Yolanda may be rich, she is incredibley down-to-earth.

Seeing my nieces is always a treat. I just absolutely adore and spoil them. After all, they are my only nieces and my sons’ only cousins. During my book signing I was very nervous that I would say something wrong or something that would trigger my dad to get up and leave. When I am nervous or anxious I take a LOT of deep breaths, as you probably have noticed. Luckily Yolanda was able to work her magic and charm my dad into giving me a chance to make up with him.

Luckily my father and I have slowly gotten our relationship back on track, and I only hope watching this episode doesn’t take us back to square one, as sometimes it restarts the fights between the girls and I even if we have already made up.

My new dog Buddy has definitely grown on me and is now very loved, although we are working through some biting, peeing, barking issues with a trainer. We all miss Chica so much and sometimes I accidentally call Buddy by her name, which makes us all a little sad.

It is very scary that Joyce and her husband had to deal with possible home invaders in their driveway, and I’m glad they were scared off. For me personally, having two little boys in my home that are at the age where guns are in video games and in cartoons (like Star Wars among others) that kind of glorify guns violence, I would not feel safe having a gun in my home. I do have cameras, an alarm, pepper spray, and I sleep with giant kitchen knives under my bed. I’m just too afraid of an accident happening with my children to keep a firearm in my home.

We are all invited to join Joyce in taking a self defense class, which is always a good idea. Growing up my brother, sister, and I were all involved in lots of physical altercations because we lived in a rough neighborhood. I sadly was even involved in two fights in high school. My parents always said that we weren’t allowed to start fights — but we sure as hell better finish them, otherwise don’t come crying to them. The three of us are pretty tough kids, so these Beverly Hills women really don’t scare me at all (except for maybe Carlton).

I was pretty impressed with Yolanda and Kim’s skills, as well as Carlton’s, of course.

While boxing with the coach he said I could hit him as hard as I could in the face. Mind you, we didn’t tape our hands before we put on the gloves, which makes me mad because I know better and am not sure why I didn’t ask to. I go to throw the punch, and he puts his head down so that I hit the top of his head, which is the hardest part of the body — and snap I break my hand. I knew it was broken the second it happened, but tried not to be a sissy about it and just jumped out of the ring.

I don’t like to show vulnerability because when I have in the past I have been let down. Basically I don’t ask for help because I’m afraid no one will help me. I know that Lisa cares about me, but sometimes when she is constantly pointing out the things I’ve done wrong or the things she wants me to do her way I feel like its more so she can say I told you so and be right.

I though it was very sweet of Kyle to give me that card in the limo. We have slowly been wiring on our friendship. When Chica went missing, she called her daughters to go out that very night and help look for her. Kim, Kyle, and their families were also the first gals out of the group to come over and help me scower the neighborhood and put up signs for Chica, which I truly appreciated. I confided in Kyle a little about the situation with my dad and some other things and she was very sweet. She even let me drop the kids at her house a couple times when we had events and my babysitter canceled. To me that is a huge deal and I am starting to see Kyle in a different light. It’s funny when Kyle and Lisa get together I feel like their is a bit of a competition for who is top dog of our group. There are a lot of strong personalities in our group, and no one is better then anyone so I don’t quite get the competition. . .

(I learn to understand it but that comes later in the season.)”

Do you agree that Brandi doesn’t ever show her vulnerable side?

Sure, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Yolanda Foster is “friends” with her co-stars but there’s a lot she doesn’t really know about them! Yolanda Foster blogged about Monday’s past episode and actually admitted that she is getting to know more about her co-stars by watching them like everyone else! See what Yolanda had to say below

“The dynamics between the woman and Carlton during the preparation for her Americana Pool party is a bit uncomfortable for me to watch. But who knows? The end result could turn out to be the most beautiful pool party ever, Cirque du Soleil style.

There are times when we see quite a lot of each other and times we really don’t, so I am kind of getting to know more about everyone by just watching the show.

As you can see, Brandi is still in a funk and everything overwhelms her at this point. She asked me to join her for Pride weekend in Sacramento and to meet her family — and to help navigate the situation with her dad.

They got into a big blow out months earlier after Brandi’s book release because she exposed a part of his past that he understandably did not want to share with the public. I enjoyed driving around and hearing the stories of Brandi growing up. Even though we both came from equally humble beginnings, her suburb was very different from the little, sleepy farmers town I grew up in. The Glanvilles are a lovely, hard-working family that have problems just like yours and mine.

My father died when I was seven-years old and I still miss him everyday so it is really sad for me to see a daughter relationship shut down this severely.

Our parents are close in age; I know that generation has an extraordinary sense of pride, loyalty, and privacy so I recognize Guy Glanville’s issues with Brandi and I was hoping to soften him to a point where he could express not only his disappointment but also his love and pride for his daughter because no matter how old we are, the approval of our parents is extremely important. Brandi absolutely loves her family and obviously did not intentionally mean to hurt her dad.

I believe the biggest lesson here for Brandi is to learn to protect the privacy of her family and friends. Just because something is the truth, does not mean you need to share it with the world, especially when it involves others. Thinking before she speaks is going to be mandatory because the choice of her words are starting to have consequences that effect not only her but also her loved ones.

Although I am not Jewish, I have been to many Friday night Shabbats at my friends houses, and I absolutely love it. It’s a great and inspiring tradition to keep the family close.

The afternoon with Joyce at Fortune Gym was informative and great fun. As you can see, taking direction with my Lyme brain is just a tad unreliable as I almost choked the poor guy. Embarrassing!!! Watching it back, Lars clearly gave instructions twice but I guess it did not register in my head. I am glad he thought it was close to a happy ending.

You only saw a smidge of Kim and Kyle’s boxing match, but it was an absolute crack up and they had us all bent over laughing. It has been nice to see them work through their issues and enjoy their sisterhood because at the end of the day, family is really all we have.”

Yolanda seemed to take a more positive approach this week on her blog. Thoughts on what she had to say?