--- title: "Erika Jayne Admits She ‘Dreaded Waking Up’ While Married To Estranged Husband Tom Girardi" url: https://allabouttrh.com/2021/05/20/erika-jayne-admits-she-dreaded-waking-up-while-married-to-estranged-husband-tom-girardi/ type: post date: 2021-05-20 modified: 2021-05-20 markdown_url: https://allabouttrh.com/2021/05/20/erika-jayne-admits-she-dreaded-waking-up-while-married-to-estranged-husband-tom-girardi.md author: "Lara Sophia" --- # Erika Jayne Admits She ‘Dreaded Waking Up’ While Married To Estranged Husband Tom Girardi Erika Jayne was more honest and open in the season 11 premiere episode of the* Real Housewives of Beverly Hills* than she's been in the last 5 seasons of the show. During the season 11 premiere of RHOBH, Erika admitted that she *“dreaded waking up”* while in quarantine with her now-estranged husband, Tom Girardi. At the time of filming, Erika and Tom were still married, but the episode foreshadowed their eventual split. Erika's startling admission came during a girl's night at Dorit Kemsley’s house. While sitting in Dorit's backyard, Lisa Rinna asked all the ladies to reveal their *“best moment”* and *“hardest moment”* during COVID. Most of the ladies admitted that they were *"thankful"* to have the time at home with their families; however, Erika felt much different. *“[My time in quarantine] was very dark,”* Erika said. *“Like all of us, I’m busy all the time. And when I came home from [doing Chicago in] New York, it was really silent.”* *“And then, when I didn’t have anything to do, I was walking down halls of the house, and I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t shake it, and I couldn’t shake it. I was feeling this incredible dread,”* she continued. *“Who am I if I’m not working?”* she asked. *“Every day, I woke up, and I dreaded waking up. So I called a psychiatrist, and I went on [the anti-depressant] Lexapro. And it was the greatest thing.”* Later in her confessional interview, Erika added, *“I did not want to have to see a psychiatrist — I felt that it was a sign of defeat.” * She then told her friends and co-stars, *“My problems are still there, but my attitude about them is different.”* Erika didn't go into detail about her* "problems."* Still, one can only assume her marriage was one of them as we've previously reported Erika filed for divorce from Tom only a few weeks into filming season 11 of RHOBH. The *Real Housewives of Beverly Hills *airs Wednesdays at 9 p.m. ET/PT on Bravo. ## Thoughts on Erika's admission? Are you surprised Erika was so open during the season 11 premiere? Sound off below! **[Follow](https://www.instagram.com/allabouttrh) **AllAboutTRH On **[Instagram.](https://www.instagram.com/AllAboutTRH)** **[Follow](https://www.twitter.com/allabouttrh) **AllAboutTRH On **[Twitter.](https://www.twitter.com/allabouttrh)****[Like](https://www.facebook.com/allabouttrh)** AllAboutTRH On **[Facebook.](https://www.facebook.com/allabouttrh)** Source: [HollywoodLife](https://hollywoodlife.com/2021/05/19/rhobh-erika-jayne-teases-tom-girardi-divorce-recap/)